It was my third Dr. Joe Dispenza retreat in 2019, and I was deep in my path to healing my mental and physical health when I had an unexplainable mystical experience.

This mystical experience follows one I had at the first retreat, which you can read about here.

I was about 5 days into the retreat, 6-8 hours/day of meditation under my belt, and I still felt like I hadn’t had a breakthrough when it came to my healing journey.

Pretty much everything I have done in my life has been with the goal of healing, and although having a mystical experience was not my number one goal, having some kind of breakthrough was extremely important to me.

We were to do a ‘coherence healing’, where we are in groups of 8, casting our healing energy to a selected group who had asked for a healing at the retreat. I was feeling selfish, so obsessively fixated on my own progress that I didn’t want to take part.

My usual habit when I am overwhelmed is to isolate – to read a book, listen to music, walk the beach, or meditate to gain some clarity on my next move. I deliberated whether I should leave, until I decided I would.

As I left the conference centre, something entered my mind, seemingly out of nowhere.

Dr. Joe’s first book was called ‘Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself’, and yet here I was, engaging in my habitual behaviour. Instead of facing the discomfort, I was leaving, so I could go back to what was comfortable – isolation.

In realising that, I turned around and returned to the session.

On the ground her hundreds of circles, laid out to show us where the ‘healees’ (those receiving the healing session) would be located. We walked around in trance for quite some time, and as the music stopped, we were instructed to stand by one of the circles, place our hands on our heart, and close our eyes.

As the person I was to heal laid down on the ground, I felt an overwhelming sense of adrenaline flowing through my body. There was a man I had been looking at all week – he was young, handsome, and wheelchair bound – but I felt connected to him for some reason.

As the adrenaline filled my body, I knew it was him. I had a little peak, and sure enough it was, which is about all I can remember from this experience.

And, keep in mind there were over 1100 people at this event, so the chances of it being him were very low.

Without any warning, something took over my body; energy shot down my back and through my outstretched hands, which trembled uncontrollably for the entire healing session. I cried so hard and my nose was running but I was completely frozen, unable to wipe my tears away or regain any sense of control over what was happening to my body.

One of the staff came over to try and assist, but I couldn’t acknowledge her either.

It was amazing.

I am a reiki practitioner, and so I’ve felt energy move through my hands but nothing anywhere close to this kind of power.

I have no idea what this mystical experience meant, or why it happened, but I do know that it happened because I ‘broke the habit of being myself’, and this kind of synchronicity has happened too frequently for me to doubt it.

Personally, I think it was to keep me on the path (which it did). I don’t think we can go back to our old ways once we have these kinds of experiences.

Have you ever had a mystical experience? If so, feel free to leave it in the comments below!

And if you’re interested in the mystical, you might like to hear about my favourite spiritual/healing philosophies which I picked up along my journey!

Jen x