I'm a nature loving girl who loves to read, learn, and grow through wildly human experiences. I've had so much fun diving head-first into the trenches to reclaim my most authentic, vibrant self, and, I want the same for you.

I entered the fitness industry in 2003 with a backpack full of body image, mental health and self-esteem issues, and knee-deep in the nutso-world of hard training and restrictive dieting. I truly believed that changing my body would change my life, and open the gate to true happiness and wellbeing. It wasn’t until 2010 when I was stripped down to nothing on stage in a local body-building competition (and lathered with 4 coats of roll-on tan) that I realized - this wasn’t the ‘fix’ I was looking for. 

I’ve always been hyper-creative, fairly obsessive and extremely motivated. If there is a problem, I am going to solve it. I love solving problems. I didn't realise how much that would come in handy until I reached my 30's, and with despite what looked and felt like the life of my dreams, I found myself lying on the kitchen floor bawling, too exhausted to move, and too hopeless to even ponder how I was going to get out of the situation. 

I’d always struggled with low self-esteem, body dysmorphia, mental health issues and PTSD, but I put my all into overcoming them - I built a fashion label, perfected my diet, become really strong, and I built a business around supporting women with their own food and training, helping them build bodies they loved to live in. They won national bodybuilding shows, lifted excessive amounts of weight and were generously celebrated for it. 

Yet here I was, so unwell and so overwhelmed I could barely function. I was battling constant gut infections and allergies not cured by multiple elimination diets. I was obsessed with food, yet terrified of it at the same time. Everything I ate would cause me problems. I couldn't train because I was too fatigued and my body had blown up like a balloon. I worried about what people would say - the girl who was well-known for supporting women has the worst health of anyone, and she can’t even fix it. 

I had gone down the medical path before - doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists, EMDR - but none of it was instilling any hope that I would get better. They offered up a bunch of labels and prescribed me pills, sure, but I wanted more than that. I wanted to be healthy.

I was so tired I couldn't clean my own house or cook my own food I had the thought - what if there is something else I haven’t tried yet?

By pure synchronicity, I was introduced to the idea that the mind can impact the body and within a short time I found myself in a homeopath and reiki healer's office. My first session with them changed how I saw the body forever, and propelled me into mindblowingly beautiful world of natural medicine and holistic healing. 
 

I stopped dieting and ate for nourishment, and I trained minimally - just whenever my body allowed me the energy. I knew I was onto something and so I was happy to let it go, assuming I’ll get it all back in a few short months. 

It took years. I started with naturopathy, reiki, subconscious reprogramming, Human Design, sweat lodge ceremonies with a shaman, meditation, journeying, Dr. Joe Dispenza workshops and other professional trainings, I had a mystical experience in Bali and my chronic fatigue lifted. I felt I was completely healed, and dove head-first into competitive bodybuilding again until one day, I started getting flashbacks. 

Trauma. Now my past was coming back to haunt me. 

The next few years were spent in trauma therapy with a somatic psychotherapist and somatic experiencing practitioner. They supported me through the darkest of memories, helping me heal my body and mind piece by piece. I had to cut my workload back by 40% to allow the time for daily meditations and Internal Family Systems work as there was just so much that I had suppressed. 

My health issues came and went throughout this time, showing me without a doubt, the power the mind has over the body (and visa-versa). There were times I fell in a hole and wondered 'why me', and I constantly pondered what my life would have looked like had this never had happened.  But it did, and I grew to accept it. Eventually, I grew to embrace it. 

And then, I healed. Wow. 

I had repressed so much pain, held it in my body, and tried to manage all that discomfort with dieting, exercising and I was trying to 'get rid' of my emotions as they were so volatile. I couldn't sit still not because I had ADD, but because I felt unsafe - I was constantly outrunning an invisible monster, 

All my food allergies, intolerances, my chronic fatigue, depression, anxiety and every other diagnosis I received was because of my dysregulated nervous system, set off by trauma. The answer was never in changing my body, or in the perfect diet, it was in nourishment of mind, body and soul. 

Now, in 2024, everything has changed. I recognise that all health and healing begins with a healthy nervous system. I recognise the importance of eating for nourishment and training in a way that builds our bodies up, rather than breaking them down. I recognise the need for education and I am dedicated to enlightening other women who are on the path to find their way back home to themselves. 

If we can learn to listen to the body before it screams like mine did, we can establish a sense of health and wellbeing from the inside-out. We can move past the ‘if only my body looked like…’ obstacle and get on with our lives. Sure, weight loss can help us feel better in our bodies, but we need to address the cause, and the dysregulation, and come back to a place of wholeness. That’s what I am about. 

After all I have been through there is one thing I know for sure - this work is my purpose and I went through it all for this exact reason.